Hello World…The Lord is my Shepherd


The Lord is my Shepherd and I shall not want for anything.

I have been under the weather for the past week and going through a test of how much pain can I take.  My sister told me that this is just rehearsal for a future ‘happening’.  I told her that I had passed my test because I was now able to stand pain that felt like you were being stabbed in the ear several times a day with a hot poker and survive  it.   I am dealing with an  inflamed inner ear and mastic pain.  Every time I move   my head in the wrong direction, opened my mouth too much, tried to talk, swallow anything cold, the pain would shoot through my ear like an explosion from inside out.

I feel better today and I have learned that only Father God can make it better, heal it when it hurts and take care of you when the pain is unbearable. 

I spent two days in the doctor’s office with  the ENT  telling me they had no idea why I was having such pain in my ear.  The ENT told me that I had a small cyst growing in my ear canal that was closing off the canal but that should not be causing the pain I was in. It should only be affecting my hearing. He told me he wanted to give me a hearing test and proceeded to do that.  During the test, the pain hit me from the pressure of the headset against my right ear and I screamed like a wild woman having her first baby.   He gave me a prescription for pain and shingles, because I might have shingles in my ear.????? That was the only thing he could think of that could cause the pain I was having.   My sister who was with me at the doctor’s office said, “I want to see the cyst he said that is growing in your ear when we get home.”   She drove me to the doctors’ office because I was in such pain I coud not drive. 

At home, she got this huge light and a pair of tweezers and began her search to see the cyst. She said, and I quote, “Dang, there is something white in there that looks like a zit. It is huge and it is yuckie looking. Do you care if I use these tweezers and touch it to see if it radiates pain like you are experiencing?”  I told her to have at it, because she could not cause any more pain than I was having and right now it was not hurting as bad as it was at the dr’s office.

She took the tweezers and pushed at it asking if I felt that.  I didn’t feel anything different.  She started laughing and said, “I am about to operate on your cyst and make a removal of the ENT’s diagnosis of a cyst.”  With that she proceeded to pinch the ‘cyst’ and pull it out. She laid it on a napkin on the table and laughed out loud.  “That, my dear sister, is your white cyst!”  And there laying in front of me was a large white piece of ear wax about the size of a pin-ball head of a straight pin.  So much for the Ear, Nose and Throat specialist who had just diagnosed a cyst in my ear.  The pain began in my throat and went through my ear as I opened my mouth to laughed out loud. Then I began to scream because the pain was so intense that I could not help it.  My husband called my primary doctor and told him I was in pain and needed to be seen immediately.  His office set me an appointment for the next day at noon.

In my primary care dr’s office, he examined my ear and said, ‘you have a lot of fluid behind that ear and the drum is really red and infected looking. Let me see your throat. With an AHA and open mouth, he told me that my throat was infected on the right side and ran his fingers behind my right ear and pressed.  When he pressed, the pain shot through my ear and I screamed.  He said, “You need to go to the ER immediately and have a CT scan to see if you have Mastoid infection along with inner ear infection.”  His office wrote the paperwork and I went to the ER.  They did the CT scan and sent me home.

At 5:00 pm the primary care doctor called and told me to go immediately to the ER again because I had acute mastitis and they needed to get an IV with antibiotics started immediately. I went and was admitted and put on an antibiotic drip where the pain came back just from laying down on the table.  They gave me a pain shot.  An hour later, the pain hit again and I screamed because it was so intense. They gave me another pain shot.  The ER doctor came in and said he had looked at the CT scan and it looked like I had fluid behind my ear with an infection in the Mastoid bones. I moved my mouth to answer and the pain hit me again.  He went and had them give me another pain shot.  I told them, “The pain med’s do not help the pain. Why are y’all giving me pain meds when it does not help the pain at all?”  The answer was, “It does help the pain, but you just don’t know it”.

At midnight, Cinderella gets to go home.  The ER doctor came in and told me that he had sent the CT scan to the ENT for him to look at and he did not see any fluid, infection, or problems with my inner ear at all;  that I did not need antibiotics, all I needed was pain meds to easy the pain and for me to see a neurologist  the next day, that I probably had shingles of the ear. They sent me home with a big pain shot and a prescription of perkacet with me telling them, “I don’t need any more pain shots or pain medicine. MY EAR HURTS and my throat hurts and the back of my head, behind my ear hurts.  Could someone just put a tube in there and release the pressure and I will get well!????!!!!!!!!!!!!”  The ER doctor told me to schedule an appointment with a neurologist the next day. Take the pain med’s when I get home and get some sleep.

I vomited  three times on the way home.  When I got home, I thru up 5 more times.  I was so sick from the pain med’s I could barely walk, see or feel my way to the bed. AND MY EAR was still HURTING so bad I could not stand it. I told my husband to pray for me to live through the night. I was too sick to pray and hurting too much to open my mouth.  He did and from 1 a.m. to 7:30 a.m. every time I moved, the pain hit my ear like a bomb blowing up inside my head. Each time it hit, I said in my mind, “the Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. I plead the blood over my ear, my mind and my life.”  At 8:00 a.m. I got up with less pain in my ear.  I have had only about 5 hits of pain today and each time I say, “THE LORD is my shepherd, I shall not want. I plead the blood over my ear, my mind and my life.”  

My primary care doctor called me today and asked how I was doing. I told him what happened at the Emergency Room and he said he was sorry they had not taken care of me properly. He had examined the CT scan and he said there was infection in the inner ear and behind my ear. He wanted me to come in on Monday to see him again for a recheck and see how my ear looked then. I told him I would be there. He said to continue taking the antibiotics he had prescribed because there was infection in my inner ear no matter what they told me.  He was old enough to know infection when he saw it.’

 It is now late night and I have had only two  pains in the past 4 hours. I am about to go to  bed and my prayer is:

     The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want!  He makes me to lie down in green pastures He leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul; he leads me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.  Thou prepares a table before me in the presence of my enemies; thou anoints my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

I have learned from this ear pain that we can endure a lot more than we think we can.

God is our helper in times of pain!

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